Monday 25 March 2013

My last Post

This is sadly the last post for my blog. Why!! well lack of time is one of the reasons... but more importantly... most of Rishabs developmental milestones as a toddler are done.. I had initially thought I would end this blog on his second birthday.. but alas !! I realise today its no more exciting to write .. the passion and energy to write has disappeared .. not because rishab is not developing..or he is not doing new things daily.. every day is still new.. and infact so new that its difficult to put it in words anymore.. it is still exciting but I guess I feel more like experiencing it than writing it.. Every moment is to be captured.. but I guess I cant do it any longer on this blog... I can only experience it.. love it or hate it.. but cant pen it down anymore.. One more reason is now as a mother all of Rishabs shouting crying and everything seems normal.. nothing tenses me anymore.. and as I wrote this last post... somewhere all along I feel I writing this blog has increased my confidence as a mother and made me feel all things Rishab does are normal today.

Today when I see a crying child or a fussy child or a child throwing tantrums.. I donot criticize the mother or judge the father .. I simply smile.. not because my son is better or because the scene looks funny.. I smile because I know the efforts the parents are taking and I appreciate this fact .. at the same time I also understand that all children go through some phase of tantrums and we as parents are trying our best and thats what matters in the end... With a child patience is the key and unconditional love the path to make him learn.

As a mother I still get tensed when he fusses to have food, I also use the laptop once a day to make him eat foods which he doesnt like.. I still get frustrated at times when Rishab does not listen.. but I have realised all this is normal. Some small wording from my heart:

I child will make you laugh,
I child will make you cry,
He will make you feel the best person at times,
And at times a total failure,
At times he will make you boost with confidence
At other times feel as timid and fearful as a rabbit
At times you will want to hug him
and at othertimes just get angry with him
You will enjoy with him on many days
And on somedays just want a break from him
You might need to do the same thing 100 time for him to learn
But when he learns it on the 101st time your pleasure will be uncontrollable
At times you will pray for him to grow up soon
And when he grows up you will miss his childhood
You will get tensed when he falls ill
And surprised when he shows his resistence like he is a super man
when you look back you will count the mistakes you made
laugh on the stupidities you did and the tension you took
This is because.....
Its not only your child who is growing up and learning new things..
He is also helping you learn to become a parent...
A child IS this difficult but pleasurable journey for your life
which will make you patient and calm and value small things in life.

Ofcourse my blog cant end without Rishabs updates... Last month was pretty bad for Rishab.. he was down with cough and cold for one week and  the second week with flu.. But now he is more independent.. "bites his food". ust few more things to achieve .. get him to leave the bottle.. which i will do when he is around 3 years.. maybe after may and remove his night diaper. and make him eat  normal adult food.. He is now speaking full sentences "Papa buy me new bus.. bus broke" He has preferences.. he say " mummy make you sleep" "papa make you eat" "papa get monkey book" "excuse me mummy". He is also doing his brush now everyday.. because he has an incentive to gargle and spit out the water.He is eating grapes and puri and chapatti. Thankyou Rishab .. mummy is proud of you.

Lastly to my dear readers..thank you for reading my posts and being with me through this journey.. from the blog statistics i cant see who you are but I know people from across the world are reading my blog (a small number). I hope you have enjoyed reading my blog.. I would be happy if you could post some comments on this last post.. so that someday if and when my son reads it.. he would feel happy.

I have really enjoyed blogging on the memories Rishab has given me but like all good things come to an end.. so does my blog. I just want to end this post by saying "I will always love you son and I will capture all your remaining memories in my heart from now on. Thankyou Rishab for this lovely experience of blogging
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